how cool is it to be saturday?! its deliverance service! was late for bible study. then after bs, went look for caiping and rest to queue up. was cool enuff to book gd seats! i have been fasting and praying for this service as well as for the new friends and friends coming.
first, thank God for the 4 friends! they are karen, teresa, benjamin and makus. woohoo. i believe they all enjoyed the service. i noe the sermon was cool. but i cant help myself. i just cant concentrate. i felt very uncomfortable, agitated, wanna get out of the audi. i gt flashback of violence, anger, hatred suddenly. i just cant stop thinking. trying my best to take down some notes.
the devil and evil spirits in me are manifesting. im pretty sure they are. coz i dun feel normal, as in like myself. i told charis and shenglong about it. i jus cant imagine wads gonna happen ltr in deliverance ministry service.
after main service, we are given 20mins break. then come back for the deliverance service. yes, i admit. im scared. im afraid. i dunno wad to do. i felt so lost. charis told me, "not u, but the devils are afraid." yes, indeed. the spirits in me noe how powerful and annointed pst mike connell is. they are indeed afraid of him.
i felt the nervousness in me is acting up. i cant hlp but to stare blankly to pst mike connell as he explained how the procedure is like ltr on. ben ask me, "y u so nervous?" my reply is just simply a, "i dunno."
rick can see how we felt. he asked me and ben to relax. i jus cant. then when the pastor 1st read out those criterias of ppl who need to be delivered first, i knew i shld go down, but i nt sure whether i wan or not. i took a step of faith and went down. ppl screaming, ppl weeping, ppl struggling, ppl vomiting. tts wad i saw. the devil inside me became very afraid. i was panicking. pst mike connell led all of us in a prayer. i cant stop weeping. i kept crying and crying. i felt the touch of heaven, i knew Jesus Christ was here with us in the audi. God's love spread throughout the whole hall, embracing every single childen of his. His grace pour out to everyone. protecting every single one. my first deliverance service marks my first new beginning of christian life again.
i seek forgiveness from God for all the little sins i committed. i felt every single sins being cancelled, being erased. Jesus Christ took away all my sins, and claimed every of our sins his. wad sacrifice he made, for the entire human race.
i cried out to him even more, i was weeping like a baby. after i cool down and went slightly forward, a ministry team came and pray for me, i was feeling very panick and i felt something that are being pushed out of me, the devil inside me bacame very fierce, they do not want to leave. "GO AWAY FROM HIS BODY! LEAVE HIS BODY RIGHT NOW, IN THE MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS!" thats wad i heard, i was truly aware of wad im doing just that is beyond my control. i felt my hands starts shaking so vigorously. my actions are big, i cant stop it, the devil is manifesting in me. all of a sudden, i felt a sudden anger, signs of violence started showing up. i was trying to push the ministry leader away. i was indeed struggling and i wanted to fight back. i screamed and shouted like no one's business. i became very very wild. i felt many other leaders came and grabbed me, i was in control of so many hands. they prayed even more and with more authority.
i started to feel giddy. heaven is like so near me. one touch from heaven, i fall back and i laid down. the team continued to pray for me. few coughs, devil was out. finally. i felt saints and angels are rejoicing that devils are leaving one by one from each bodies.
satan, you are losing. satan has no power. satan is defeated again. i have never felt this way before. no ever so violent. so deep anger before. everything was out. i felt so relieved, so 'light' and easy but tired and totally drained out.
thank God that i was delivered. a new beginning for me to start again. a new chapter of my christian life. i believe the next few chapters gonna be beautiful for God has planned our future. God is so true and great. My abba Father, who sent only his begotten son to sacrifice for us, to save the whole human race. Christians isn't a religion, but more to a relationship with God.
thank God again for open hearts of makus and ben. they took the first step of faith to go down to get delivered. they are potential. we are all children of God. we loved each other. makus and ben, we welcome you with open arms. i believe God is acting on you guys rite now. renewing ur mind, ur hearts, changing u to be a better person. our God is a good God. don't u guys agree?
i love you, Jesus! =D hallelujah! for all the glory goes to you and no one else.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
a very busy day for me
28th july 06, friday.
went for bible study at suntec. went with charis. was late. then sis jo say it was cancelled. and no one informed me. haiz. haha. so went to marina square with gui. bought studded wrist cuff. was cool though.
then ltr on we went separate ways le. gotta rush to serangoon central mac for meeting. so quickly go there. sry to pang seh u charis. lol.
meeting was fruitful and productive! =D cant wait for it to start. but, sad thing is i goonna miss FOP 1st day. =(
went for bible study at suntec. went with charis. was late. then sis jo say it was cancelled. and no one informed me. haiz. haha. so went to marina square with gui. bought studded wrist cuff. was cool though.
then ltr on we went separate ways le. gotta rush to serangoon central mac for meeting. so quickly go there. sry to pang seh u charis. lol.
meeting was fruitful and productive! =D cant wait for it to start. but, sad thing is i goonna miss FOP 1st day. =(
combined cell grp meeting
26th july 06, wednesday
had combined cell meeting today with W332. was very glad that it is in sisca's house. coz is very near my house la. haha. went sch library to return book. suppose to meet ron 0600pm at his bus stop. msg him, dint reply. coming from my sch, i bus-ed and alighted at ron's stop. dint see anyone. and just knew he must be at home.
went to his house downstairs. waited for around 1hr plus for him. called his house and handfone countless times. just no one picked up. there's once i called the house, the maid says he's sleeping, i ask if she could wake him up. she say just call his fone. but that doesnt help at all.
so nvm, continue calling lo. till 0715pm le. called charis come down go buy refreshments. ron also called me le, say he jus woke up. ask me go back my house take a4 papers and back to his house and let him print song sheets. i ran and ran. feeling super tired and breathless! nvm. haha. 3 of us went to NTUC buy refreshments. met gui sheng at 315 bus stop.
reached sisca's house on time. and still waiting for it to start. well, cell group was great. the presence was there. able to feel sis jo's burden for the zone. one word to sum everything up, AWESOME. haha. simple, nice and short. lol.
had combined cell meeting today with W332. was very glad that it is in sisca's house. coz is very near my house la. haha. went sch library to return book. suppose to meet ron 0600pm at his bus stop. msg him, dint reply. coming from my sch, i bus-ed and alighted at ron's stop. dint see anyone. and just knew he must be at home.
went to his house downstairs. waited for around 1hr plus for him. called his house and handfone countless times. just no one picked up. there's once i called the house, the maid says he's sleeping, i ask if she could wake him up. she say just call his fone. but that doesnt help at all.
so nvm, continue calling lo. till 0715pm le. called charis come down go buy refreshments. ron also called me le, say he jus woke up. ask me go back my house take a4 papers and back to his house and let him print song sheets. i ran and ran. feeling super tired and breathless! nvm. haha. 3 of us went to NTUC buy refreshments. met gui sheng at 315 bus stop.
reached sisca's house on time. and still waiting for it to start. well, cell group was great. the presence was there. able to feel sis jo's burden for the zone. one word to sum everything up, AWESOME. haha. simple, nice and short. lol.
having fun my cell grp members. haha.
22nd july 06, saturday
dint went for bs. last min diarrheoa. was afraid cant make it for service. then charis's mum gg for service too. it was healing service. quickly sms ron, jj, gui sheng, caiping they all. call them go down church asap. so to book seats. coz if not nobody book. well, service was gd. the presence of God is strong.
went to bedok japanese restaurant to have dinner. fellowship was great la. haha. oh ya, sophia's fren, chunrong was present too. felt sry for ron la. poor boy. used his pic to play. but was really funny la. haha!
come out with a story. hope u guys enjoy. lol.
once, there is a happy couple.
enjoying their lives to the fullest.
hey! look, whose photo?!
wad a sd mourning session.. =(
no where else to go, he dwells in a dark corner.
poor jingjie, lost his partner. so near seems so far. but is presence is always around.
end of story. =D
24th july 06, monday
went study grp with charis, gui and ron. went ice cube to slack after that. nice chilling place yea?
group photo in ice cube.
i sure look uncomfortable. lol.
make a wish
rod promoting ice cube
ron promoting next.
dint went for bs. last min diarrheoa. was afraid cant make it for service. then charis's mum gg for service too. it was healing service. quickly sms ron, jj, gui sheng, caiping they all. call them go down church asap. so to book seats. coz if not nobody book. well, service was gd. the presence of God is strong.
went to bedok japanese restaurant to have dinner. fellowship was great la. haha. oh ya, sophia's fren, chunrong was present too. felt sry for ron la. poor boy. used his pic to play. but was really funny la. haha!
come out with a story. hope u guys enjoy. lol.
once, there is a happy couple.
enjoying their lives to the fullest.
hey! look, whose photo?!
wad a sd mourning session.. =(
no where else to go, he dwells in a dark corner.
poor jingjie, lost his partner. so near seems so far. but is presence is always around.
end of story. =D
24th july 06, monday
went study grp with charis, gui and ron. went ice cube to slack after that. nice chilling place yea?
group photo in ice cube.
i sure look uncomfortable. lol.
make a wish
rod promoting ice cube
ron promoting next.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
passion and fire of God began to burn again
today after a long day of school of figure drawing, was quite tired. used oil pastels to color and paint out a landscape. i find it pretty nice. haha.
met guisheng at my sch there. went bugis walk, marina square and then suntec. went to city harvest office and meet up with sis jo for grp prayer. tis prayer really motivates me up agn. seriously, i wan more of christ. i wan to become a better christian. im willing to ask God to take all of me in exchange for more of God.
went shop for jingjie's bday cake. nice. went meet up with charis and carolyn. had dinner i guess at mac. went for cell grp in sis gillian's house.
cell grp today was awesome. good. nice. powerful. motivative. encouraging.
train-ed home from boon lay to serangoon. talked with jingjie and rickson. they went eat prata. i go home. coz i no $$. hhaha. anywaym ron say he wanna buy me something. i was like.."huh? u sure?" true enuff i was shocked. like y? then he say, he like then buy for me lo. haha. so good sia. he received blessing. mmm.. such a gd brother la. wun forget u for sure.
tmr's service. jus cant wait. mmm. come with a heart of expectancy to receive something impactful! woohoo! =)
met guisheng at my sch there. went bugis walk, marina square and then suntec. went to city harvest office and meet up with sis jo for grp prayer. tis prayer really motivates me up agn. seriously, i wan more of christ. i wan to become a better christian. im willing to ask God to take all of me in exchange for more of God.
went shop for jingjie's bday cake. nice. went meet up with charis and carolyn. had dinner i guess at mac. went for cell grp in sis gillian's house.
cell grp today was awesome. good. nice. powerful. motivative. encouraging.
train-ed home from boon lay to serangoon. talked with jingjie and rickson. they went eat prata. i go home. coz i no $$. hhaha. anywaym ron say he wanna buy me something. i was like.."huh? u sure?" true enuff i was shocked. like y? then he say, he like then buy for me lo. haha. so good sia. he received blessing. mmm.. such a gd brother la. wun forget u for sure.
tmr's service. jus cant wait. mmm. come with a heart of expectancy to receive something impactful! woohoo! =)
Thursday, July 20, 2006
feelings that is nothing good
started to develop some kinda weird feelings inside me. feelings like, be aware of all people ard u. feelings like, got the feeling of being bakstabbed. feelings like, doubtin every single one of there i know.
i just hate tis feeling. but is kind of dwellin inside me which i dun wan and like. i felt im a burden to other ppl, keep on slowing down other's ppl pace or a irritating and a annoying person to someone.
ppl may have ask me, who? who exactly is it? the answer is, i dunnno. i really dunno. i dunno whether i wan to know it or not. was feelin not so gd in there.
i felt betrayed. i felt backstabbed. but by who? i dunno. i nt sure. worst thing is u have been backstabbed and not knowing who backstabbed u. voices tellin me to be aware to all people out there. includin my friends. for nt every single one can be trusted.
i find it very difficult to put my trust in someone now. i find it hard. really. is it difficult to build trust on someone? is it safe to place ur trust onto someone?
different people may have different answer. but my answer is yes. i find it hard. i find it difficult and i find it nt easy. it takes time. but how long? sure it takes time, but how sure can i get to know that i wun be backstabbed again? come on, who wans to be backstabbed? not u not me. but y is it happening?
frankly speaking. i hate to say this. but i started to doubt my closest friends out there. i know i shld nt. how can i even doubt them? i find some ppl isnt real in my presence. they are jus faking their feeling towards me. if they dun like me, y cant they just stop acting and be true to their actions and feelings? humans can be more cunning than foxes.
but if they are truthful, will i get hurt? things are so complicated. i dunno how to describe. but i jus hate this kind of feeling.
i do advise and counsel ppl and help ppl. but y cant i help myself? y cant i counsel myself? y cant i advise myself?
hopeless. useless. these words are inside my mind. spinning around. for i know all this are devil's attack. I HATE YOU TO THE CORE! I DESPISE YOU! I REBUKE YOU! I TRAMPLED YOU! I STOMP AND SQUASH YOU UNDER MY FOOT!
my body is the temple of christ.
no one shall touch it or harm it.
for christ is living in and through me.
christ's blood is flowing through me.
devil DOES NOT belong in here.
and you, devil SHALL NOT corrupt my mind, body and soul for your evil works!
i just hate tis feeling. but is kind of dwellin inside me which i dun wan and like. i felt im a burden to other ppl, keep on slowing down other's ppl pace or a irritating and a annoying person to someone.
ppl may have ask me, who? who exactly is it? the answer is, i dunnno. i really dunno. i dunno whether i wan to know it or not. was feelin not so gd in there.
i felt betrayed. i felt backstabbed. but by who? i dunno. i nt sure. worst thing is u have been backstabbed and not knowing who backstabbed u. voices tellin me to be aware to all people out there. includin my friends. for nt every single one can be trusted.
i find it very difficult to put my trust in someone now. i find it hard. really. is it difficult to build trust on someone? is it safe to place ur trust onto someone?
different people may have different answer. but my answer is yes. i find it hard. i find it difficult and i find it nt easy. it takes time. but how long? sure it takes time, but how sure can i get to know that i wun be backstabbed again? come on, who wans to be backstabbed? not u not me. but y is it happening?
frankly speaking. i hate to say this. but i started to doubt my closest friends out there. i know i shld nt. how can i even doubt them? i find some ppl isnt real in my presence. they are jus faking their feeling towards me. if they dun like me, y cant they just stop acting and be true to their actions and feelings? humans can be more cunning than foxes.
but if they are truthful, will i get hurt? things are so complicated. i dunno how to describe. but i jus hate this kind of feeling.
i do advise and counsel ppl and help ppl. but y cant i help myself? y cant i counsel myself? y cant i advise myself?
hopeless. useless. these words are inside my mind. spinning around. for i know all this are devil's attack. I HATE YOU TO THE CORE! I DESPISE YOU! I REBUKE YOU! I TRAMPLED YOU! I STOMP AND SQUASH YOU UNDER MY FOOT!
my body is the temple of christ.
no one shall touch it or harm it.
for christ is living in and through me.
christ's blood is flowing through me.
devil DOES NOT belong in here.
and you, devil SHALL NOT corrupt my mind, body and soul for your evil works!
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
wad a long and tired day
its been 6 days since i last updated. was getting very busy this few days. very busy indeed. i cant even catch my breathe la. was very tired this few days too. wasnt really very feel mentally and physically. nt feeling well nt sick, but jus very exhausted by the loads of work and assignments. got to meet all date lines etc. was simply very hectic.
i will just started updating from 14 july 06, friday.
was xinyi's bday party. and also n20 dinner at chomp chomp. ron, me and isabel, we went to xinyi's bday party of coz. was great la. enjoy there. was quite happy to see those north cluster frens agn. smile for that. =)
jonathan, jowell, me and isabel drank. but nt drunk of cos. but i tink jowell is. lol. she's crazy! talking craps and thrash la. lol.
15 july 06, saturday
service was great. healing service. was praying for those who are sick. i just simply love going to church la. haha. anyway suppose to have CL quiz today at 0330pm. i was delayed and late. i was actually helping out and counselling a fren of mine. he was tinkin of dying la, because of some bgr problems. young kids these days... haiz. haha. anywhere, was glad that he's opening up to me and willing to share. was also glad that i am able to talk to him.
16 july 06, sunday
went to plaza singapura with my family. had our dinner there at cafe cartel. food was good. oh ya, and i was blessed with a new W810i! smile for that! =) cool gadget. was actually hoping to get it last time.
17 july 06, monday
3d studies. gotta finished up my octopus. haha. using metal wires and make a animal of ur choice lo. bent and coiled those wires with my bare hands lo, was painful. keep poking into my flesh la. haiz. my octopus looks like this: and i named it... eh... OCTI? haha.
went straight to serangoon garden coffee bean to study with gui sheng, charis, eulynn and penny. 2 ah mo girls came in la, then charis say one was kinda interested. haah. was happy yo hear that. they keep lookin at our directions and we keep lookin la. then when i turned, then turned and looked at me. was super paiseh. then i pretended gt things dropped. hhaha. then i was sittin in a way that my back was facing them. so could nt see them. then eulynn and charis keep calling me to turn, i dunn wan. coz very obvious la. but i really regret. they left and waved goodbye. haha. and i dint get to see! argh!
gui ran out to help me get number. i was followin behind. was tailing them till we lost track of them in serangoon garden country club.
really regret nt getting their numbers. argh! haha. gonna study there more often. =P
after study, i, gui and eulynn went to beside cafe cartel to have ice-cream: viking on the rock.
was cool that it was so big.
were sharing some relationship stuffs with each other.
go home chiong my homeworks, assignments and projects! drew a landscape during 4 to 5 plus in the morning!
18 july 06, tuesday
alright. was super tired and restless. dint not sleep for the whole of yesterday night. was rushing thru my assignments and projects. almost done but not yet. and realised i am gonna be super late for class, then quickly packed up, bathed and get changed and off the sch. was totally tired. almost miss my bus stop. was sleeping inside. took some stupid pics with my "aunty" - eleanor during the basic drawing lesson.
during 3 hrs lunch brreak, went mos burger eat. then off to sch library do history project then went to student lounge and sleep! slept for an hour. super shiok! 2d studies was fun! my favourite! =)
i will just started updating from 14 july 06, friday.
was xinyi's bday party. and also n20 dinner at chomp chomp. ron, me and isabel, we went to xinyi's bday party of coz. was great la. enjoy there. was quite happy to see those north cluster frens agn. smile for that. =)
jonathan, jowell, me and isabel drank. but nt drunk of cos. but i tink jowell is. lol. she's crazy! talking craps and thrash la. lol.
15 july 06, saturday
service was great. healing service. was praying for those who are sick. i just simply love going to church la. haha. anyway suppose to have CL quiz today at 0330pm. i was delayed and late. i was actually helping out and counselling a fren of mine. he was tinkin of dying la, because of some bgr problems. young kids these days... haiz. haha. anywhere, was glad that he's opening up to me and willing to share. was also glad that i am able to talk to him.
16 july 06, sunday
went to plaza singapura with my family. had our dinner there at cafe cartel. food was good. oh ya, and i was blessed with a new W810i! smile for that! =) cool gadget. was actually hoping to get it last time.
17 july 06, monday
3d studies. gotta finished up my octopus. haha. using metal wires and make a animal of ur choice lo. bent and coiled those wires with my bare hands lo, was painful. keep poking into my flesh la. haiz. my octopus looks like this: and i named it... eh... OCTI? haha.
went straight to serangoon garden coffee bean to study with gui sheng, charis, eulynn and penny. 2 ah mo girls came in la, then charis say one was kinda interested. haah. was happy yo hear that. they keep lookin at our directions and we keep lookin la. then when i turned, then turned and looked at me. was super paiseh. then i pretended gt things dropped. hhaha. then i was sittin in a way that my back was facing them. so could nt see them. then eulynn and charis keep calling me to turn, i dunn wan. coz very obvious la. but i really regret. they left and waved goodbye. haha. and i dint get to see! argh!
gui ran out to help me get number. i was followin behind. was tailing them till we lost track of them in serangoon garden country club.
really regret nt getting their numbers. argh! haha. gonna study there more often. =P
after study, i, gui and eulynn went to beside cafe cartel to have ice-cream: viking on the rock.
was cool that it was so big.
were sharing some relationship stuffs with each other.
go home chiong my homeworks, assignments and projects! drew a landscape during 4 to 5 plus in the morning!
18 july 06, tuesday
alright. was super tired and restless. dint not sleep for the whole of yesterday night. was rushing thru my assignments and projects. almost done but not yet. and realised i am gonna be super late for class, then quickly packed up, bathed and get changed and off the sch. was totally tired. almost miss my bus stop. was sleeping inside. took some stupid pics with my "aunty" - eleanor during the basic drawing lesson.
during 3 hrs lunch brreak, went mos burger eat. then off to sch library do history project then went to student lounge and sleep! slept for an hour. super shiok! 2d studies was fun! my favourite! =)
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
stress out and tired
saturday service was gd. sermon was awesome and motivating. but fellowship was bad. went home early.
sunday, woke up late. watched LIVE service online. message was again gd. meet ron go church for prayer meeting. went to plaza singapura to have lunch with ron, charis and caiping.
went to serangoon mac after that. teached ppl maths. talking to alvin. was quite a gd fellowship i find. sharing some religion things.
chatted with jacob and jun boon. i like his w810i. i gonna get that.
monday, went to sch. was slightly late. had 3d studies. using metal wires to make a animal of any choice. i planned a octopus.
tuesday, today. late as usual. had basic drawing of interior design. chim-ilogy. was sharing some things with lecturer. find him was a gd lecturer after all. 3hrs break. ate chicken cutlet for lunch. was panting while eating. food dint taste tt gd today.
had 2d studies and color lesson after break, was super tired. slept for a while then wake up continue my assignment. was pretty cool. feeling very stress and tired out, totally drained out. i need some rest.. i need a break. im strengthless. im falling down. help.
sunday, woke up late. watched LIVE service online. message was again gd. meet ron go church for prayer meeting. went to plaza singapura to have lunch with ron, charis and caiping.
went to serangoon mac after that. teached ppl maths. talking to alvin. was quite a gd fellowship i find. sharing some religion things.
chatted with jacob and jun boon. i like his w810i. i gonna get that.
monday, went to sch. was slightly late. had 3d studies. using metal wires to make a animal of any choice. i planned a octopus.
tuesday, today. late as usual. had basic drawing of interior design. chim-ilogy. was sharing some things with lecturer. find him was a gd lecturer after all. 3hrs break. ate chicken cutlet for lunch. was panting while eating. food dint taste tt gd today.
had 2d studies and color lesson after break, was super tired. slept for a while then wake up continue my assignment. was pretty cool. feeling very stress and tired out, totally drained out. i need some rest.. i need a break. im strengthless. im falling down. help.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
make up cell grp was fun
friday, 7 july 06. had LAN outing today. few new friends came to join us. was quite fun actually. total of 10 ppl. and tts wow. haha. me, ron, gui, sophia, charis, eulynn, penny, andy, jemie and one more guy. couldnt remember his name. sry. haha. i felt fellowship was great. got to know ppl better. was good for me la. haha. hope others enjoy the fellowship too.
played dota and quake 4. no cs la. sianz. then after LAN, went serangoon central mac and slack. saw priscilla and gang. then isabel joined us. craped, talked and had fun. met jacob and jun boon half way. was suprised la. haha. talked for a while.
time to leave for make up cell. accompanied them to cell although i've been liao. while leaving mac, alvin said to me, "haiz, mei you yuan fen." dint managed to get wad he said la. tot abt church then i jus say saturday lo. he say see first ba. haha. then ron and charis were laughing. they say is different meaning la. then i was like yes meh... how slow can i be man. haha.
went to cell. carolyn's new fren, aaron was super late la. then all waiting for him. shall not touched so much on that. anyway, cell group was fun and good la. aaron, caroyln, eulynn, sophia, me, penny and charis went. bus home with sophia and charis after that. saw jj. =)
played dota and quake 4. no cs la. sianz. then after LAN, went serangoon central mac and slack. saw priscilla and gang. then isabel joined us. craped, talked and had fun. met jacob and jun boon half way. was suprised la. haha. talked for a while.
time to leave for make up cell. accompanied them to cell although i've been liao. while leaving mac, alvin said to me, "haiz, mei you yuan fen." dint managed to get wad he said la. tot abt church then i jus say saturday lo. he say see first ba. haha. then ron and charis were laughing. they say is different meaning la. then i was like yes meh... how slow can i be man. haha.
went to cell. carolyn's new fren, aaron was super late la. then all waiting for him. shall not touched so much on that. anyway, cell group was fun and good la. aaron, caroyln, eulynn, sophia, me, penny and charis went. bus home with sophia and charis after that. saw jj. =)
Thursday, July 06, 2006
wednesday, best cell group ever
was late for history class today. but nvm, used to it. lol. anyway, today end sch super early. 1030am finished le. went sunshine plaza eat with constance, mango and eleanor. then took cab home with mango.
go home sleep awhile. then woke up went down to rainbow for hair cut. wasnt very nice. wad done is done, nvm. then meet gui sheng in amk mrt stn, going to city hall. went to funan to buy his game. then went Lan-Gaming. played battlefield. was nice la.
late for cell. noe i shldnt have. then talked for awhile. cell group then start. everyone was into the presence. ron, rick, jj, me, gui, caiping, sis gillian, chunshu and shenglong went for cell. was very happy with yesterday's cell grp. every one was very enthu. everyone step out in faith to pray. and i mean EVERYONE. was cool rite? then when it comes to ministering and sharing in God's word, total of 6 person ministered. compared to past cell grp meetings, 6 was very high le. believe N20 is growing to the next higher level. N20 is growing more spiritually le. Thank God. and i believe greater breakthrough and more revival is gonna come to N20.
Thk God for his vision. Thk God for every single things. =)
go home sleep awhile. then woke up went down to rainbow for hair cut. wasnt very nice. wad done is done, nvm. then meet gui sheng in amk mrt stn, going to city hall. went to funan to buy his game. then went Lan-Gaming. played battlefield. was nice la.
late for cell. noe i shldnt have. then talked for awhile. cell group then start. everyone was into the presence. ron, rick, jj, me, gui, caiping, sis gillian, chunshu and shenglong went for cell. was very happy with yesterday's cell grp. every one was very enthu. everyone step out in faith to pray. and i mean EVERYONE. was cool rite? then when it comes to ministering and sharing in God's word, total of 6 person ministered. compared to past cell grp meetings, 6 was very high le. believe N20 is growing to the next higher level. N20 is growing more spiritually le. Thank God. and i believe greater breakthrough and more revival is gonna come to N20.
Thk God for his vision. Thk God for every single things. =)
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
wondering outside
went out to meet mr.gui in toa payoh. supposingly visiting jiahui in hospital today with others. then jiahui was discharged today. went to kfc. helped mr.gui draw his things. met liyuan there. she came all the way in. was suprised to see her. haha. gt super excited. i was like..."liyuan!" haha. miss her la. so long dint see her le. sry for not going sentosa with u guys. was super sick. hope u guys enjoy urself!
shortly charis, eulynn and penny came. went to food court to have our dinner. the girls sure very crappy and funny la. anyway, tts abt it for today. got to wake up early tmr for sch. bb.
shortly charis, eulynn and penny came. went to food court to have our dinner. the girls sure very crappy and funny la. anyway, tts abt it for today. got to wake up early tmr for sch. bb.
1 day of waste
woke up quite early today. rested in peace at home for the whole day. using com and everything like tat. hais. sianz.
at night, 3 way quarrelled with my mum and isabel. over a small thing. because of the money of the spray paint that was bought for the POCG thing.
ron was the treasurer i noe. ron oso told isabel to tell sis gillian herself le, coz she doesnt have to receipt. but she dint go tell her. so whose fault was it? she claims she dint go church. she ask me to help her say. is like i oso will forget de ma. i got so many things to do u tink i will remember every single thing? and plus i was sick. come on la, y cant u be more responsible or even more accountable? y are u not teachable yet? you are still dirtied with those vulgarities tat is still inside your mind.
im really very sick and tired. i just wanted to rest. y cant a physically sick person had a gd rest? dun i deserved it? wth. i very tired. i just wanted to take a breathe and rest. spare me pls. i just wished im all alone.
at night, 3 way quarrelled with my mum and isabel. over a small thing. because of the money of the spray paint that was bought for the POCG thing.
ron was the treasurer i noe. ron oso told isabel to tell sis gillian herself le, coz she doesnt have to receipt. but she dint go tell her. so whose fault was it? she claims she dint go church. she ask me to help her say. is like i oso will forget de ma. i got so many things to do u tink i will remember every single thing? and plus i was sick. come on la, y cant u be more responsible or even more accountable? y are u not teachable yet? you are still dirtied with those vulgarities tat is still inside your mind.
im really very sick and tired. i just wanted to rest. y cant a physically sick person had a gd rest? dun i deserved it? wth. i very tired. i just wanted to take a breathe and rest. spare me pls. i just wished im all alone.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
very sick
tis very morning, was feeling very terribly sick. was struggling and twisting and turning ard the bed. i was gasping for air. i cant breathe. ya, asthma attack plus fever. sianz la. im breathing very hard. jus to make sure i can breathe enough. but the feeling is so terrible. as if i may die any time. its been so long i had asthma attack liao, now combo, asthma plus fever. wah, indeed im scared. but the first time i thought of is God.
i was asking and pleading God for help. make me able to breathe properly agn. its really torturing. it was still early in the morning ard 5 something. i had no strength left. so was dragging myself to the living room couch to sit there and rest.
my sis had to go sch tis morning. so my mum woke up and saw me sitting down there. its obvious tat im suffering. then i suddenly remembered my late grandpa who passed away just last yr. he was oso out of breathe. he was struggling. he was suffering. he could nt breathe too. i was scared, i was afraid. i kept tinking abt God, nothing else but God and my beloved N20 friends.
then my mum went to wake my dad up, quickly i was sent straight to the hospital. despite of the inhaler i used, its still no use. journey to hospital was fast and quick. went to the emergency dept. slowly my breathing improved. guess God really heard my cry towards Him. thank you, God.
i was slightly better le. but was feeling cold. nothing to do, took some pics using my handfone. u muz be tinking that im crazy rite? haha. so serious le still gt mood to take pic. haha. nvm, i was crazy. lol.
emergency dept consult
had xray, blood test, heart beat test, check up etc etc. was sianz la.
and i just got back not long ago nia. and now blogging le. thank God for saving my life. =) got 3 days MC. continue to keep me in prayers. thks guys! =D
i was asking and pleading God for help. make me able to breathe properly agn. its really torturing. it was still early in the morning ard 5 something. i had no strength left. so was dragging myself to the living room couch to sit there and rest.
my sis had to go sch tis morning. so my mum woke up and saw me sitting down there. its obvious tat im suffering. then i suddenly remembered my late grandpa who passed away just last yr. he was oso out of breathe. he was struggling. he was suffering. he could nt breathe too. i was scared, i was afraid. i kept tinking abt God, nothing else but God and my beloved N20 friends.
then my mum went to wake my dad up, quickly i was sent straight to the hospital. despite of the inhaler i used, its still no use. journey to hospital was fast and quick. went to the emergency dept. slowly my breathing improved. guess God really heard my cry towards Him. thank you, God.
i was slightly better le. but was feeling cold. nothing to do, took some pics using my handfone. u muz be tinking that im crazy rite? haha. so serious le still gt mood to take pic. haha. nvm, i was crazy. lol.
emergency dept consult
had xray, blood test, heart beat test, check up etc etc. was sianz la.
and i just got back not long ago nia. and now blogging le. thank God for saving my life. =) got 3 days MC. continue to keep me in prayers. thks guys! =D
Saturday, July 01, 2006
reunion cell group; new friends gathering
its finally friday. which also means cell grp time. and also time to see n20. supposed to bring new friends today. but qingyang last min back out. say dun wanna go liao. sure i was disappointed. feeling abit pek chek. but that only lasted awhile. so went all the way to jurong west sis gillian's house alone. took bus alone, took train alone. was feeling moody. and worst still, im feeling very uncomfortable in my body. my throat again give me problems. sore throat. haiz.
when reached boon lay, called ron and chun shu. met up there. because of the bus interchange had switched position, ron told me he was lost. haha. it was jus the opposite side nia. lol. funny sia. took 242. tot it would go sis gillian house. ron say is faster. then i say ok lo. then we boarded. after that found out it is weird. brought us to unfamiliar places. so better alight.
we are lost indeed. anywaycalled for help. and it doesnt help much either. took a cab down instead.
reached sis gillian's house le. wasnt feeling well. jus dun feel like talking coz of my throat. was feeling moody. haiz. cell grp was gd. fun. enjoyable. nice.
the love of n20 is everlasting, and nothing could replace the love that we shown towards each other. the love is so special, that no other words can describle. we could not find the same kind of love in n20 anywhere else. it is only in n20. the special bondage with each other, exclusively to n20.
when reached boon lay, called ron and chun shu. met up there. because of the bus interchange had switched position, ron told me he was lost. haha. it was jus the opposite side nia. lol. funny sia. took 242. tot it would go sis gillian house. ron say is faster. then i say ok lo. then we boarded. after that found out it is weird. brought us to unfamiliar places. so better alight.
we are lost indeed. anywaycalled for help. and it doesnt help much either. took a cab down instead.
reached sis gillian's house le. wasnt feeling well. jus dun feel like talking coz of my throat. was feeling moody. haiz. cell grp was gd. fun. enjoyable. nice.
the love of n20 is everlasting, and nothing could replace the love that we shown towards each other. the love is so special, that no other words can describle. we could not find the same kind of love in n20 anywhere else. it is only in n20. the special bondage with each other, exclusively to n20.
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