screwed up

25th august 07, saturday


today supposed to meet up at 10am to bendemeer studio for practice. but all overslept. woke up at around 1plus pm. msg-ed everyone. prepared and meet 430pm in serangoon mrt station. meet up with hanlin and weileong. i'm still in yesterday's mood. still going emo, thinking about lots of things. and slowly, my mood improved.

went town to practice. bused from dhoby to smu. walked around looking for suitable place for our practice, found none. walked to esplanade underground. lots of break-dancers there practicing their moves.

practiced there until around 845pm. walked to outside esplanade bus stop to bus to prata. prata at 10pm. there's me, hanlin, weileong, sam, ningying, teeyue, baoman and gerald. received a news. my bad mood came back again. i'm not blaming, but just feel very bu kan yuan to withdraw. like kinda screwed up the feeling.

spent so much time together practicing and practicing, meeting almost everyday, all looking forward to this friday concert. we put in everything we got. and this is the result? why bad things just keep coming and coming? so sick. that's why im so sick of living already. if im dead, i don't have to worry so much.

everyone's no mood. although hanlin just beside me, but he msged me, "don't dance already la, our star player gone, no choreo, no time, whats the point? treat it as a lesson learnt lo".

i knew he didn't want to say that out, coz no choice. but after talking to beautrice over the phone, im somehow motivated by her again. nobody wants this, everyone in 2d is anticipating about this concert, hoping 2d would do a great show on stage.

so after long time of thinking, we came out with the decision, not to withdraw, continue.

brothers, i know we can do this. i dun wan our time and effort to just gone like that. we are all looking forward to this right? come on, we shall do it. we can do it. i noe. i believe.

and making this post a special one, thanking for 2d's support. thanks colin for being such a great brother. thanks xiaoqian =] for encouraging. you guys are my life and everything. <3

went Q Bistro to slack after prata. went mac for supper after this. cabbed home afterwards. and also heard from colin, JOEVENN from sec 4E'06 dun like me, rodney sim. haha, i just dun give a damn at all.