rodney's dead

24th august 07, friday


friday. didnt go school again. wtf. rodney, you are good for nothing ass.

went dance today. met hanlin first in gerald's house void deck. after a while, yixian came. gerald backed out alrdy. left 4 dancers. after dancing, went prata. prata only rodney, hanlin and weileong. after prata, hanlin and rodney went lan, but closed. weileong went home.

rodney walked home alone. half way, his usual habits, cabbed home.

reached home, audition. went berserk. rodney's thinking... ever thought of committing suicide? there's this urge to do so. but no guts. always wanted to, same, no guts. rodney wanted to go heaven after he dies, but after committing suicide, will he still go heaven?

rodney wants to drink so much till he drunk. rodney wants to go to another world too. will another world invites him over? will it be a better place than here? thinking thinking...