had counselling session today

18th october 07, thursday


having counselling session today. cabbed to school and meet the counselor. i'm sure quite nervous about it, i haven't seen a counselor before in my life. this is my first time though~ there's first time in every single thing.

session today was pretty alright. its more on the counselor getting to know more about me. this is not the only session i'm having. i will be having multiple of it. appointments to make soon i guess.

after counselling, went park lane to play lan by myself. felt a little disturbed and keep thinking about the counselling session i had just a moment ago. felt like a failure. rodney had screwed up his own life and needed counselling! i just felt like giving up, i can't seems to be able to handle the pressure with my strength alone.

i somehow kept encouraging myself in a way or another not to give up. continue to work towards my passion and goal. but after so much things have happened, i can't seems to be optimistic anymore. life's tough. i can't walk this road alone. how come rodney sim, me, are facing this shit thing. why me? i asked..

bus-ed home after lan, back home into my room. went online and some people came talking to me in msn asking my counselling stuffs. thanks to those who cares.

watched Evan Almighty.

feeling a little ****ed up. i'm afraid of tomorrow now. living each day with fear and insecurity. hope there's no tomorrow. every next day is a tomorrow. i hate it..

updates for today

17th october 07, wednesday


staying awake the entire night yesterday playing audition till today morning 10am. ate my breakfast as i was hungry. went to sleep and woke up at evening, 630pm. nothing much to do in the net, so played audition throughout.

-x2-Hiro was leveled to level 19. license for relatively challenging. tried it for 3 times. passed it in the 3rd time. was some sort finding entertainment in audition but there was few.

currently in love with this all girls band called vanilla ninja. they sing merely rock songs which i think is so cool and they just managed to rock every song. currently using nokia n73 too. my motorola v6 giving me many problems. i just left it aside, hoping to make a trip to the service center one day when i'm free.

mum told me that there will be a family gathering most probably this sunday at the sentosa. i'm getting myself tanned, do hope i did. having counseling session later on at 230pm. going to rest now.

going for a job interview

15th october 07, monday


yesterday sunday's all wasted by the four of us doing nothing but sleeping the almost whole day, playing audition and crapping everything in my house. just felt that wasted 24hrs of my life. monday blue will always visits me regular on this day, just feeling so lethargic to go anywhere. stayed at home till evening. got prepared and bused to bishan.

sorry yixian for the turning up for the dinner, you knew the reasons why. shall not elaborate here. planning to get down to bishan to keep yixian accompany, but he left off early. did own shopping at bishan for a while and trained to khatib mrt station to meet someone. eariler in the day, i went yahoo online shopping, searching for my n73 charger, earpiece and data cable. went to meet and buy it from a seller in khatib. just love online shopping, it's so affordable and fast.

after training to and fro, bused back home.


16th october 07, tuesday


supposed to have counselling session today at 3pm, but i overslept. was postponed to this thursday instead. i'm afraid my situation have become worse or rather more complicated? the counsellor has told me they have invited an external professional counsellor to talk to me. and the internal counsellor will just sit in.

i was stunned for a moment. "ehhh...okayy." that's what i said. never been to counselling before, but i guess the problem not lying with me? or is it with me? or am i having some kind of problem within me?

i always thought i'm alittle crazy at times, but maybe not to the extent got to see a counsellor? or rather 2 counsellors at the same time now??... but if i'm really crazy inside me?... nvm, if i'm crazy, i'll just ended up in hougang chalet the most and maybe kill someone i hated most, coz i heard crazy people isn't guilty of killing another people. so people, dun even try to offend me, you do, i may come hacking you into pieces with a parang. LOL~ opps, i'm a dangerous person. =X

cabbed to eunos today to meet gerald for a interview today. some network multi level sales line which i strongly do not believe in it. there's this guy from the interview, apparantly one of the staff there, former ACS(I) student, pissed me off. he's super irritating and annoying. cracking lame jokes to me? and even try being so nice and friendly and talked to me? striking not one but many times of conversation with me. his signature exaggerating body language which is so fake and adnormal really irritates me and gerald alot. okay, i will just classifiy him as melodramatic. he's overly too enthusiatic!

and i find the company's presentation is really funny. i can almost literally laugh out real loud if i didn't control it. they sounded a little corny. still takes alot of consideration before me joining them.

after that, trained back serangoon to have supper with gerald. and bus-ed home.

happy 18th birthday justin!

13th october 07, saturday


celebrating justin's 18th birthday today. meeting in hougang mall at 5pm. i went to meet them later at around 8pm plus. went ajisen to have dinner. poor rodney, baoman, gerald and hanlin are going on a budget scheme. we ordered a side ala carte and we went around the mall bought different food on take away basis.

how cheap are we right? LOL~ there is a total of 11 people which consisted of rodney, hanlin, gerald, baoman, alwyn, weileong, justin, samuel, ningying, meiting and meiyu.

went home after dinner. samuel, ningying, me, hanlin, gerald and baoman boarded the same bus. decided to go hanlin's house. alighted at serangoon central and went macdonald to slack. went shop and save to buy 2 tubs of ice cream, strawberry and tiramisu flavored.

we ate 2 full tubs till we felt like vomiting. i gonna swear i'm not gonna touch ice cream in 1 week's time. after slacking, decided to change the place to my house to ton instead of going to hanlin's. accompanied baoman to her house first and went hanlin's house. waited everyone to finish bathing while i am in hanlin's room playing audition.

once everyone's ready, cabbed down to fetch everybody to my house. played monopoly. having great time playing. have lots of laughter here and there while playing. after monopoly, sleep. started sleeping at 8am.

slept for 9-10hrs. woke up at 530pm to 6pm. piggy head, baoman, still sleeping. i tink her minimum sleeping hours is 12 hours instead of a normal's 8hrs. snapped a photo that caught baoman and gerald when we woke up.

mass audition-ing in my house. super funny things going on. LOL~ went down for dinner and then went home. feeling super energetic now, =.=".

my lappy's having problems again!

12th october 07, friday


the contractor from singtel came to my house early this morning to install the mio tv in my room. supposed to go for counselling appointment today at 1030am, but could not make it, called them for a postponed. i still do not get it why i needed counselling.

was audition-ing the whole afternoon and took a short nap after that. woke up and continue audition-ing. my -VOX-Hiro character had leveled to level 9 today. accidentally spilled my glass of glass jelly drink on my table and somehow kenna my plugs and switches, my beloved precious lappy, floor, the wall and the table. everything's not important, only my lappy. cleaned it immediately.

went to bath and get ready for prata session with the 2D peeps. came into my room and discovered that my lappy was blacked out. suspected the water somehow got into it and affected the motherboard. fcuked! guess i have to send it for repair again.

bused to prata. the people attended today's prata are me, alwyn, gerald, weileong, samuel, ningying, colin and chengfeng. after prata, all went back home. today's somehow special, all going home early. so alwyn and i bused home.

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going for casting for a product

9th october 07, tuesday


while i was still sleeping, my phone was vibrating non stop and someone was calling me. i knew it was the counselor that called, which i suppose to have an appointment with her today, i didn't pick up the call. i was too tired to do anything but to lie down there on my bed motionlessly. trying to get back to sleep.

after i woke up, i totally ignored the missed calls and did not call back. doing my stuffs at home. watched resident evil: extinction.

the movie was great. went online training my -VOX-Hiro character account till almost midnight. then went to bath and bus-ed over to serangoon central to meet baoman, gerald and hanlin for supper at S11. went mac after that to have ice cream. cabbed home after slacking at playground.


10th october 07, wednesday


woke up pretty early today and went to bath and get ready to go out. meeting 3pm in tanjong pagar mrt station with beautrice, joseph and hanlin. we are going for casting. doing a corporate video for a well know electronic brand. some sort like a commercial.

the whole casting was extremely fun and enjoyable. very professionally done. we did dancing freestyle for the video. it was extremely cool. after the whole thing, trained back home.

outing with yixian and hanlin

8th october 07, monday


met up with yixian at serangoon mrt station at 630pm. trained to dhoby, planning to get my phone serviced. but couldn't find motorola store around the mall. so decided to take train to city hall to meet hanlin. but my ez-link card ran out of money. so buying standard ticket, and never did i realised i do not have enough coins for the fare. neither do yixian. so i tried my luck my asking the surveyor to change coins. cutting the story short, i and yixian entertained them by doing their surveys and we earned 30cents from them for our train rides. they just gave it to us since we do not have enough coins to pay for the fare.

trained to city hall to meet up with hanlin. i and yixian was doing some lame shit thing. we wrote hanlin's full name on to the mini whiteboard we have, and yixian just carried it with him showing the public hanlin's name. while i'm standing next to him, both of us looking for this person named hanlin. we are acting as though we are in the airport. a guy came and walked towards us. and he was hanlin. lol. managed to somehow find him though. lol.

walked to marina square and went fourskin to buy yixian's slipper. went to have our dinner asap as we are dead famished. went to Hans to have our dinner. after Hans, hanlin and i bought our diamond ear stud. then went arcade to play. and i injured myself badly today. i tell you, its damn badly. after that, went 7eleven to get my @ Cash, but it was sold out. went Cafe Cartel to have dessert. yixian and i had mango moouse cake while hanlin got (i dunno wads the name of the cake) which have 3 layers. extremely appetizing.

after dessert, went to suntec convention to bus home. just crapping some stuffs in bus. we saw stefanie and wenjun in suntec too. alighted at central to 7eleven to get my @ Cash. saw colin and chenfeng. cabbed home afterwards.

playing audition all the way till 4am plus.

press conference for project dance edge

6th october 07, saturday


went for dance practice today. was late, cabbed there. today's the choreography was changed to make it nicer than the original. was told in a few weeks time, a press conference is going to be held and some of the dancers will be asked to attend the press conference, in somehow promote this dance event to the public.

after danced, bused home. bath and ate my lunch. audition the whole day. training my Hiroine character. she had leveled herself to level 7. and was damn busy from afternoon to night, becoming a tester of the guild to open recruitment room to recruit members.

played the same song, same dance mode for thousands of times and really getting sick and tired of it. my eyes are getting heavier and heavier each time. it just gonna pop out any moment. cant stand it. shall go and rest.

counting down to 7 more days and im leaving singapore, the sunny island. im so fcuking stress in singapore. really really need a vacation and a day off singapore in a relaxing place as much as i could. (:

dancing in bendemeer again! ^^

5th october 07, friday


overslept and got up and got prepared. bus-ed to bendemeer studio for dancing with hanlin and gerald. danced for 2hrs. next, bus-ed to school to see the teacher in charge once again. brought up the matter of changing class again. the lecturer is going to refer me to a counsellor and suggest i make a appointment with her and talked to her.

"rodney, i suggest you would want to talk to a counselor? there are some problems in life that i may not be able to help, but there's some people out there that can help you. im sure you are not against this idea right?" i stunned for a moment and thought counselor? i dun tink i have any mental or psychological illness or disorder. i dun need counseling! anyway, my appointment with the counselor is next tue.

went to sunshine plaza for lunch. then afterwards, bus-ed home. audition with hanlin at home. i was self-entertaining. hanlin called it split personality. =.=" after audition-ing, went to bath and bus-ed to prata to meet 2D peeps. there are chengfeng, colin, baoman, teeyue, alwyn, samuel, ningying, myself, hanlin and gerald. weileong met us in Q Bistro later.

went mac after Q Bistro, cabbed to baoman's house to accompany alwyn to get his mobile charger from baoman and then cabbed back home again.

audition ^^

4th october 07, thursday


staying at home the whole day, spending all the time merely on audition. training my -x2-Hiro character and also my noob character, Hiroine. Hiroine being recruited in -VOX- guild. (: and -x2-Hiro coupled with a new couple called -XY-.

so thats all for today. tmr dancing with hanlin tmr. WE WANNA DANCE! ^^

hougang mall for dinner

3rd october 07, wednesday


went to hougang mall for dinner today with yixian, colin, chengfeng, hanlin, alwyn and baoman. dinner was great. played a very childhood game, i dun really noe what we are playing but somehow similar to hide and seek.

bus-ed to serangoon to have prata. soon after, gerald, grace, chuan yi and grace's friend came to join us for prata. cabbed home with alwyn afterwards.

Happy 18th Birthday Teeyue! and updates

30th september 07, sunday

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY

TEEYUE!

bus-ed to bugis to meet my 2D kickasses to celebrate teeyue's birthday. kickasses that came for the celebration are me, hanlin, gerald, colin, alwyn, teeyue, baoman and joyce. dinner-ed at hongkong cafe. there's this super large giant sized milk tea that stunned everyone around the table.

after dinner, bus-ed to serangoon. everyone's cracking their brains on where to go next. chengfeng came. sat by the roadside thinking, police came and screened us. in the end, walked over to serangoon central's mac to slack while i did a last minute touched up on teeyue's birthday card.

joyce went home after this and we walked over to Q Bistro, the cliques had their own signature way of moving from a place to another, while im the cliques' photographer snapping pictures of them. lol~

realised Q Bistro's closed early today, and we went tho the opposite pub cum ktv to slack.

the uncle there is a scammer! cheated our money and time. he's a fcuker. bought bottles of helneken beer to drink.

went high afterwards, didnt know beer took effect so damn a lot faster than vodkas. became a living merlion after that. had headache. cabbed home with alwyn and hanlin.

reached home, bath and sleep.

1st october 07, monday

woke up with a headache. asked hanlin to accompany me to clarke quay to collect my lappy. cabbed there and went clarke quay central mac to walk around. went starbucks to slack and listened to some old audition songs.

bus-ed home at evening and we are laughing loudly in the bus. crapped everything under the sun.

2nd october 07, tuesday

spent hours designing a new blogskin for myself. was tired with the previous. removing and reshifting my room. need to start afresh once again. counting down in 11 more days and i'm leaving singapore finally. need a vacation! ((:

dance training: freestyle solo

29th september 07, saturday


got out of bed early today. cabbed to bendemeer and boarded the chartered bus to the studio in town for dance training. carrying my stupid sickness there with me. the warm up is enough to kill me. i almost collasped and just died down there, trying my best to gasp for more air as much as i could.

though i'm sick, but i still enjoy dancing as much. find today's lesson was rather interesting. did freestyle solo today. so as expected, i did my house movements which i'm more comfortable with. made friends there, although they're all small kids, but somehow, we managed to clique with each other "somehow". and they called me the "house guy". =.="

after lesson, went back home immediately to rest. slept till 11pm plus, almost midnight. =.= played audition. my beloved audition character, -x2-Hiro, had leveled yesterday to level 18! wooo~ stop playing at 7am in the morning. went to make teeyue's birthday card.

and then went to sleep. (:

28th september 07, friday


woke up feeling terribly sick. had a fever. stayed at home to recuperate. auditioning since morning 630am to afternoon. got back to sleep at 2pm plus and woke up at 7p, plus. my throat's always not feeling good and damn the f**king blocked nose, cant even breathe properly.

went for prata with the 2Ds at 10pm plus with alwyn, colin, hanlin, gerald, teeyue and baoman. went lan at rising star and pool afterwards. then came weileong. went mac after pool for supper. cabbed home with alwyn afterwards.

having dance training early in the morning the next day. feeling kinda lethargic as i've been feeling sick these days..

happy birthday colin and choonhao!

27th september 07, thursday

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY

COLIN SEAH! ^^

and

CHOON HAO! =]

woke up at 6am today and was feeling so damn hot. weather has been so humid lately. went to bath. after bathing, was feeling so refreshed, while waiting for my hair to dry i played audition all the way till afternoon 4plus pm.

while auditioning, i was so sleepy, went to catch a nap and didnt expect i would sleep till 10pm plus at night. woke up with a very bad sore throat and blocked nose. feeling so damn sick. that's all for now. playing audition soon. ^^

Mid-Autumn Festival and Happy Birthday 18th Colin!

25th september 07, tuesday


today's mid-autumn festival which i've very looking forward to. i would always stop by House of Tibits to take a look at those cute mini lanterns hanging on the ceiling of the shop. it would brings me back to those days when we were still kids and innocently carrying it, trying to protect and prevent it from catching fire.

so met up with the 2Ds which consist of me, hanlin, gerald, alwyn and baoman. five of us bought our lanterns, candles, matchsticks and fire sparklers which total cost us $20 plus. walked over to the park outside peicai at serangoon ave 4.

went to hunt for our spot and camped there. played with candles and some building their "rockets" using fire sparklers. the whole of mid autumn festival was fun.

after our burning of candles, destroying and wrecking up the whole spot, we walked over to macdonalds in serangoon central to slack further and also to have our supper there. chatted there till 4am plus in the morning and cabbed home with alwyn.

26th september 07, wednesday

woke up late due to the extreme tiredness we suffered last night. woke up at 3pm plus today and msg-ed everyone (kenny, colin, weileong, yi xian, gerald, hanlin, chengfeng, samuel, ningying and teeyue) that the meeting time was delayed. the rest met up in bugis and went over to Nadezhda Russian Restaurant in arab street.

baoman, alwyn and i met up in bugis first and we went to buy birthday cake for colin and met them directly straight at the restaurant. the ambience for alright, and it is more of a fine dining. food was a little costly but it's still fine.

celebrated colin's birthday in the restaurant. after dining, we bus-ed 133 to serangoon and walked over to Q Bistro.

kenny, hanlin and me went over to the opposite lanshop. after laning and them pooling, we walked over to kovan's punggol nasi lemak coffeeshop for supper. headed home after supper by cab. (:

To: Colin

Happy 18th Birthday Bro!

Do hope you had an unforgettable

birthday celebration with the 2Ds.

All the best in everything you do,

and best wishes to you. Great friends

always and keep our friendship in 2D strong!

enjoy and cheers~ (:

daily updates =]

21st september 07, friday


got out of bed very early today. met up with hanlin in serangoon central's mac to have breakfast. bus-ed to bendemeer studio for dance practice after breakfast, its been quite some time we been there to dance.

danced for an hour and hanlin accompanied me to my school to see a teacher to settle some stuffs. went to print colin's birthday invitation card as well. was bored, went school's library to use the computers.

walked over to park lane to play lan, audition. after 2 hours plus of games, bus-ed 147 home. meeting 930pm for prata session with 2D pals.

today's prata attendace consisted of me, alwyn, hanlin, kenny, gerald, baoman, teeyue, weileong, justin and alvin. went Q Bistro to slack further after that. cabbed home with alwyn and kenny at 4am.


22nd sept 07, saturday & 23rd sept 07, sunday


woke up early and cabbed to NYC for dance lesson. dance today was fun. new steps was taught today. bus-ed home to sleep after dance. supposed to celebrate yixian's birthday today, but some things cropped up and yixian could not make it. so birthday celebration was cancelled, but we continued to go out to have simple dinner @ sumo house.

the attendance was sucks, consisting of me, kenny, baoman, gerald, justin, alvin, teeyue and kangquan. went to k pool to have a few games of pool.

went serangoon central to slack further after this. all went home except me, gerald, baoman and teeyue. went shop and save to buy things needed for baking cake. went gerald's house to bake.

after baking, went deliver cake for joanne and her girls to try. slacked in macdonald all the way till morning. gerald left half way, leaving me, baoman and joanne.

called hanlin up and asked him for breakfast at mac. after breakfast went home. slept till 4pm plus and bus-ed to serangoon stadium bus stop to meet hanlin, gerald, joanne and baoman. bus-ed to parkway and walked over to east coast park. went for ying ying's birthday bbq. quite relaxing there, enjoying the sea and land breeze.

stayed there till around 10pm and bus-ed home with hanlin, gerald and joanne while baoman went for her chalet. going school tmr. feeling a little of reluctant to do so.. =.=

Happy 18th Birthday Yi Xian!

20th september 07, thursday

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY

YI XIAN!

being an overnight owl last night, did not sleep but was online watching videos of America's Next Top Model reality show. those bitching around the house really makes the whole show interesting.

was watching the show till the next day 12pm. supposingly meeting hanlin to dance today, but i was so dead tired that i went to actually plan to take a short nap but slept till very late. so postponing our dance session to tmr, friday.

finished planning yixian's birthday celebration. now's just confirming the attendance for the day.

A birthday message for my dear friend,

Happy 18th Birthday Bro! Have been friends for

11 years and still counting, may our friendship from

primary one continues and even grow much more

stronger. All the best for your future endeavor and

best wishes! Enjoy and cheers!~ ^^

your bro since primary one,

rodney (: