one missed call with hanlin and baoman

15th jan 07, tuesday


cabbed to bugis street for an interview. had our lunch and walked around bugis street. it was then started raining like cats and dogs. baoman and i went to buy an umbrella from and super cheap store. the umbrella only cost us $2.50. lol.

walked over to nafa and accompanied baoman to pay her registration fees. went library to use the computers. didn't attend class today. i promise i will the next day. walked over to dhoby ghaut to shop around. bought tees from cotton on. they are like having a crazy mad sale.

meeting hanlin in ang mo kio. we had dinner in sumo house, a japanese eating house. i've long for this outing for a long time. its like an best friends gathering. so few people, yet enjoyed so much. (:

after dinner, went to watch movie, One Missed Call in jubilee cinema. ticket are priced at only $5.50 each. that's cheap right? baoman screamed halfway in the movie, hanlin and i were like laughing so hard at her. lmao.

comparing this hollywood version and japanese version, i still prefered japanese one. it's more natural and interesting.

bused home afterwards.

first day of school

14th jan 07, monday


school's started. it has been a new start of semster for me. everything shall restart and lead my healthy school lifestyle, hopefully. everything's seems fine for the first day for me.

had three hours break in the middle, was shopping and walking around bugis street and parco bugis. played lan for an hour.

ended school at 6pm. meeting joanne afterwards for dinner. lan-ed while waiting for her. went park mall sakae sushi for dinner. thanks joanne for the treat. sakae was nice. its been long since my last visit there. had lots and lots of salmon. loving salmon to the max, even its raw. loving it! (:

shopped around plaza singapura and trained home shortly after.

Peicai Orientation Campfire

4th jan 08, friday


its been long that i last update my blog. admit it, one word: lazy. 2008 has started with a good start of me working, keeping myself busy and earning incomes for myself. supposedly to work today, but took an urgent leave off today.

went out with baoman to marina square today. went to walk around and also had dinner at the food court. ordered many food.

thanks to pakcheong's notice, peicai's having an orientation campfire at the holding school today. baoman agreed to go back with me. well, the holding school's a bit creepy looking, it looks like an haunted house to me.

the campfire was funny to me. everyone seating around the campfire, but the fire is like so tiny and small. it can't even light up the whole area.

met up with some graduates in school and chat for a while.

saw colin there for npcc too. so colin.... mmm... i was told not to mention anything here. so..


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left with baoman and colin to the prata. long time i last went for prata. attendees were me, colin, baoman, chengfeng, teeyue and yixian. went Q Bistro after prata, well, is Rubik's Cube in trend right now? colin is being influenced by yixian and is currently addicted to it. Rubik's Cube? so geek!~ not chic for sure.

went off early with colin to meet joanne to get his Rubik's Cube. waited for our last bus home. that's all for the day.

had counselling session today

18th october 07, thursday


having counselling session today. cabbed to school and meet the counselor. i'm sure quite nervous about it, i haven't seen a counselor before in my life. this is my first time though~ there's first time in every single thing.

session today was pretty alright. its more on the counselor getting to know more about me. this is not the only session i'm having. i will be having multiple of it. appointments to make soon i guess.

after counselling, went park lane to play lan by myself. felt a little disturbed and keep thinking about the counselling session i had just a moment ago. felt like a failure. rodney had screwed up his own life and needed counselling! i just felt like giving up, i can't seems to be able to handle the pressure with my strength alone.

i somehow kept encouraging myself in a way or another not to give up. continue to work towards my passion and goal. but after so much things have happened, i can't seems to be optimistic anymore. life's tough. i can't walk this road alone. how come rodney sim, me, are facing this shit thing. why me? i asked..

bus-ed home after lan, back home into my room. went online and some people came talking to me in msn asking my counselling stuffs. thanks to those who cares.

watched Evan Almighty.

feeling a little ****ed up. i'm afraid of tomorrow now. living each day with fear and insecurity. hope there's no tomorrow. every next day is a tomorrow. i hate it..

feeling so fcuked up again

5th september 07, wednesday


woke up late. get prepared and went to take bus to school. met baoman on the way on the bus. making our way to school. she accompanied me to my school first. then afterwards, went to opposite sunshine plaza to have lunch.

after lunch, walked to bugis for her shopping. went Everlast to get her shoes. she has the size she want, but not the color. so bought it, decided to change it again. went all the way to heeren to change colour. we took train there.

train was damn fcuking cramped. those people also like no brain. no space to move already, still squeezed here and there. is like wtf? alighted at somerset and walked all the way to heeren. on our way, stopped by a model agency staffs, those as usual scam i tink. talked those rubbish like, "we are looking for a freelance model, i tink you suits our criteria for our project." aiyah, wadever crap, just quickly gave our contacts and left.

went to Everlast (heeren) to get her shoes changed. then we walked all the way to dhoby ghaut to take train back to serangoon. saw li jun in serangoon, went serangoon central mac to slack. talking about clubbing, there's clubbing tmr. but so damn fucking stressed by it. i wanna go, but NO MONEY! hell no money lah, freaking broke.

then the "i hate myself" feeling is back again. committing suicide always always comes to my mind, there's always a voice within me saying, "jump and everything will be settled once and for all". cant take it anymore la, i dun wan all this stupid stress, LIFE SUCKS i noe.. STUPID LIFE.

i just wanna die la, feeling so fucked up, my life's all ruined and screwed. went buy a bottle of Hooch and drink. stupid their atm machine got problem. cant purchased with atm. wtf? so only managed to buy 1 bottle, hoping this one bottle could make me drunk like hell, which is impossible.

asked gerald come meet us, then he bought 2 bottles, one hooch and one bacardi peach. i drank the peach. again cant get drunk! only went abit high. stupid sia. prank calls some people, making stupid noises. fcuked lah... i swear i gonna get drunk one day.

slacked and took some photos.

i want to go for plastic surgery one day, to change my whole image sia. kns. fucked, so many things i wanna do. looking for a sponsor somewhere.

im such a idiot. =.= FUCKED sia...

oh ya, twin bro is sick. get well soon dude! (:

late night sleeping~

2nd september 07, sunday


slept till very late today, woke up at 5-6plus pm. stayed at home all day, simply doing nothing. just went online and doing those usual stuffs, blogging, friendster, audition, msn etc. was very bored at home.

chat with baoman online, talking about ourselves. slacked and rotted at home till like 2-3 am in the morning. hanlin went online, sent him the video of our teachers day performance and also pictures of clubbing and teachers day.

he sent me one of his edited pics was super funny. so decided to post it to 2d blog and play with, damn hilarious. it's fucking funny lah, laughed till peng~ after much fun of playing, watched some movies. watched american pie wedding and hostel 2.

slept at 5am plus in the morning.


3rd september 07, monday


woke up at 2pm plus today. went online, slacked till 6pm plus. got bathed and prepared and went out, wanted to go to school and collect a form, so bused to sch, sch office closed, bused back serangoon. dumb right?

on the way, conferencing the phone with twin bro and baoman. funny la. jio twin bro go play lan at rising star. baoman studying in mac with yingying. once reached serangoon, go find baoman and yingying first. stupid yingying give me eat the harry potter beans thingy, so disgusting. i wanna vomit can! yucks. pui~`

afterwards, walked over to RS. played lan for 2hours. twin bro and me walked to mac, suprisingly, mac was closed due to some unknown reason. bought bean curd at n&b and eat. after eating, walked over to interchange and bused home.

meeting twin bro tmr at bendemeer studio for dance. ^^ love dancing.
meeting baoman tmr to go school. ((:

reached home, watched movie. watched hills have eyes. grossed lah. slept at 545am.

updates ((:

20th august 07, monday


teachers' day rehearsal today. but we didn't turn up for it. coz we aren't prepared to perform anything yet. still haven got our choreo done. feeling so stressed up. went practiced at bendemeer studio. today's practice only consisted of two people, hanlin and myself. its always the two of us.

couldn't care much, so just keep thinking, trying to get our choreo done. practiced on sharpness and co-ordination with hanlin. my co-ordination with him was alright, more or less okay. practiced till 6pm. oh ya, found out there's this major dance event which is called, Project DanceEdge. Its kinda a cool thing as it's recruiting dancers now and there's this major dance event/ performance at this year end, december.

dancers will be working with professionals such as choreographers, make-up artists, backstage crew, dancers, costume designers etc. its so damn cool la. got to attend an audition for that. so we are very interested in that. the organisers say it gonna contact us soon. do hope it will be a yes. ((:

after practicing, went to bendemeer's food court to eat. then we bus-ed 147 home. tiring day today~ but fruitful. =]

drew this while we are bored in the studio.

21st august 07, tuesday

having dance training today again at bendemeer studio. meeting hanlin and weileong there. dance today was fruitful, able to finalise the two new parts we thought of. here's are the tutorials videos of the dance.

Remember The Name Part 2

That's Right Part 2

practiced from 4pm to 6pm. after practicing, bus-ed to serangoon to have dinner with the 3 of us and ahkeat. after dinner, bused home. fruitful day today too. ((:

at night was a nightmare for me. today's not the day for audition. super pekchek and pissed yesterday. mind was full of vugalrities. couldn't control it.

22nd august 07, wednesday

didn't go to school today. overslept. met hanlin outside peicai to practice dance today. and mr shao ye let me waited for him for 1hr. coz he overslept! nvm, twin bro twin bro. dun ji jiao so much. so went practiced in peicai till for like 2hr?

then went central coffeeshop for dinner. then bused home. was crapping on the way.

went home, onlined. twin bro and i came out with this club called, "BASTARD CLUB". WE LOVE IT LA~ being an bastard and ass to others. lol~ so funny can. we had our club's logo. here's it.

so super duper funny. will not say here again. post it to 2d's blog liao. we also have our club's pledge. LOL~ and was crapping like no one's business in msn. damn hilarious. HAHA, ROFL, LMAO, LOL, everything come out la. LOL~ super funny today. tink everytime with yeo's family always so funny. never fails to laugh. hahaha. ^^

tmr sch.. tmr dance ^^ sch's boring, dancing fun! ^^ love dancing~

bought Emporio Armani sunglass

6th august 07, monday

went out with baoman in the morning today. both of us didn't go for morning class. went various places like city hall, bugis, etc. bought myself a Emporio Armani sunglass. was very nice.

went to HANS in national library to have a very sumptuous set lunch meal too.

its been long that i haven really hampered myself, seating in a such comfortable and relaxing place to enjoy life. this feeling is just so pleasant and wonderful. shopped and walked around till 3pm and we cabbed. me going back to my 3pm class for presentation, while baoman headed back to her grandma's house.

meeting after school. having a dance discussion at 7pm at gerald's house void deck. only me, weileong, yixian and hanlin turned up. baoman came too, but isn't contributing much to help. after discussion, went central macdonald to have dinner.

after dinner, bused home. feeling very tired. online and sent hanlin the songs for music remix tomorrow over at TP.

5th august 07, sunday


stayed at home the whole day. feeling quite restless. went online to edit videos. was frustrated by it.

rodney went berserk

26th july 07, thursday


i felt so failure today. i'm such a big loser. rodney sim don't even know how to save money, all he knows is just wasting money like running water. he thinks money is easy to earn, not realising these are hard earn money. a spoilt brat. a spoilt guy who doesn't treasure about time.

always late for class, not punctual. missing class, run away from class, not attending lessons. all sorts of his nonsense and craps. i so hate rodney sim can??

repeated another year at school and yet still not learning his lesson? wtf? what an ass...

rodney sim, are you really like this? from what i know, you are not like this the last time? how come have changed into such a pathetic state? missing class, repeated year and so on. is not like what rodney would do.

i hate you rodney sim! you jolly well go school and attend all lessons! stop wasting money, you ass!

am i so useless and stupid? am i really that failure? i felt so stress and life seems so fucked up and totally screwed up by my own! rodney sim, you spoiled your own future you idiot!? i can almost go berserk. felt so lost when i cant find my class and those stares of new classmates looking at me... i feel so outcast. i felt pressurized. i wanna do well this year. but im not doing it?!

life is going to be meaningless and time wasting! RODNEY SIM YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE! A MORON! CAN SOMEONE JUST KILL RODNEY SIM FOR ME? IT WILL BE BETTER IF HE'S DEAD.

argh!