31 august 06, thursday
woke up at usual 7am today. took ard 1hr plus to prepare. today took long time to prepare coz today is a special day, teachers' day concert. well, im performing mah. took quite a long time to style my hair. wasnt easy. haha.
was so excited and looking forward to it. meichin sms-ed me in the morning, informin me that they can be dismissed at 10am and she could nt find her party poppers at home. so i went to go look for it and bought some. walked a couple of shops, but were closed.
took bus to peicai. was anticipating for the concert. listening to my mp3 half way, trying to remember and do the dance steps. haha. im sure both exicted n a little nervous. though i had been performing in front of the whole school since sec 1. the feeling each time was different. yes, it will be nervous facing the thousand strong crowd, but the high energy level of the audience really pumps me up to the extreme, giving the audience the best performance i could give.
arrived peicai at ard 9am. coz i didnt noe wad time concert start. so jus go earlier. went outside my sis's class. she power la, jus shouted, "hi" to me loudly across the classroom, which actually attracts so many ppl's attention. nvm, im used to it. haha.
andy, isabel and jerald came out earlier to practice dance. was glad andy was really serious in this performance. haha. soon, bell rang. it was 10am. all performers are released, i, jacob and junboon, we quickly went for our recess. wooo, jus missed peicai's food. haha. quite filling and also CHEAP. haha.
suppose to have lunch with wendy. its been long we actually being 2gether. but due to the busy schedule and inappropriate timing, because of the concert, i cant had lunch with her. sad right? hhaha.
quickly our crew members quickly get changed and we practiced for a few times. was cool and very nervous. soon enough, more and more graduates and ex-peicaians appearing one by one, visiting the teachers and also view the concert. i didnt tell any of my friends that i am performing, haha.
my mind was empty, all that could keep my head busy is he performance later on. i was excited and yet nervous. was afraid that anything would go wrong. so we jus keep on practicing.
in order not to stress everyone up, we took some photos too. haha, sure was memorable. jus love them all. its been long since we all get 2gether like this. joking, crapping, dancing, chatting, everything.
first performance was the 4E. which is choonhao's and friends. one gd thing abt performing is that we can make friends of other performers. haha. gd rite? lol. a fren of choonhao's forgot abt his belt, then borrowed mine, coz his pants like gona drop any moment. haha. and we jus like this, became friends, lol. their performance was really entertaining.
next was a wu shu performance then a ballet performance. and very soon, it was US! so fast. we quickly go over to the backstage to prepare. i was super panicked, i cant believe is our turn's. everything was alright. fine. until my board. (-_-") haha. nvm, had humor into performance rite? haha. lol. anyway, well done team!
next was alumin team. xiaolong, jessica, yiru, chris, blah blah blah. they're hot and great man. lol. xiaolong was blur. he did his move slower than the rest. but overall was excellent man! 5 stars.
soon, everything was over. cool enough. present our gifts to our teacher. can see she was touched by our effort, our mother hen. =)
i, jacob and junboon went out after concert. we went to marina square to walk and shop and slack. its been long we get 2gether. dint noe it gets so fun n high with only 3 of us. haha. woohoO!
next event we gona meet is the camp. psl training camp. in changi chalet. everything was cool and nice. was busy and tired though, but i still turn up. coz of one word, "love". my love and passion for psl. i grew up in there. i raised up powerful leaders like u guys, simply wonderful. love is really incredible.
now talking abt N20. is been long we fellowshipped. it felt like we all have drifted apart. nono, is i have drifted apart frm u guys. i no longer feel a sense of belonging, i no longer feel the love of N20, i no longer feel the closeness of N20 anymore. it seems like i can felt more love in peicai friends now. we cared for each other and talked to each other very oftened. the relationship with N20 is no longer present. when i came for cell grp, it jus felt so weird, service and i saw u guys, i felt even more weird. ppl used to close to me, i no longer feel the closeness. as if we no longer understand each other now.
i do not know how to speak up, i do not know how to share, my life seems so complicated, hectic schedule and life. busy with this and that. friendship problems, problems here and there. i jus do not know how to clear the mess. the stress i faced, the pressure, burden and responsibility i carried. nobody can seems to understand.
i jus wan to be alone. i felt as though im drowning. trapped into a dark dark room, being locked inside. im searching n searching for the key to unlock the lock, i jus couldnt find it. i wana a rest. i wana a break. i wan fresh air again.
i dont like ppl putting pressure in me. i felt like exploding. sometimes i dun tink i can handle life alone. i need help. but who? i dunno.
anyway, lotsa things have been cleared now. camps over, concert over. im able to live agn. thks to meichin and jacob for standing beside me along, when i needed someone at that crucial pt of unhappiness, sad or down or stress, u guys are there to comfort me, encourage me, talk to me, be my listener. thk you so much. i thank God for putting u these great pals in my life. =D
after sunday service, i brought jacob along with me. sure we enjoy the service. thk God for his blessing. faithfully tithed and offerings, within 24hrs, after service, met up with mfamilies along with jacob. my dad blessed me with a laptop. cool. thk God.
after buying laptop, i and jacob went to RSAF open house 2006. we sure enjoyed ourselves there. cool. althought only 2 of us, but we sure really enjoyed to the max. haha. nice.
i wun talked anymore, if nt its gonna b veyr long. i shall post some pics to do the talking. friends forver, jacob, meichin and junboon. =) free, next tym we hang out some other days. =)
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